Raymond's Birthday

I went to Henderson last night to celebrate Raymond's birthday at Pat's in Henderson. It was the first time since the funeral that the 4 of us were together.. yes Mike came in from Houston. I brought Raymond the "pot" that he has salivated over since you bought it. I know he will take good care of it and use it and that is what is important.. Mike is also wearing the watch you wore when you left us. I sent him home with your leather jacket and gloves - I know my little brother will be warm because of you. You know he is a grandpa now. I have also spoken with George and I am making arrangements to take your drums to George - he will I believe take the best care of them. I know you would be happy that he is putting them in the hands of people who will love them the way you did. I am still lost without you. I tried hard to go visit you yesterday but the traffic in Baton Rouge made it too late to go see you - I am so sorry I really want to be there but I will find a way to see you before Christmas.. Love you and wish you were here..

Today was your day

This holiday became so important to you when you reconnected to your family. My heart is so broken that you are not here to celebrate it. Everyone is trying to help me get through this but the pain is so deep and I am so empty,, I know this is the hardest because its the first - but like I told Darren yesterday - coming to meet you would be ok with me. I love you and I am so sorry about the changes I am having to make but until I meet you again I have to figure this out. I am trying my best and hope you understand. I wish I could visit you today but it is not going to happen - I pray you understand - you are always in my heart. So Harry - Happy Thanksgiving and I hope you are celebrating with your friends and family in heaven - enjoy your cranberry sauce..

Benny

Benny stopped by last night with the new 12 Yats CD - he wrote a beautiful dedication to you ... I am so proud of the last song you recorded with him.. what a trooper you were.. and the greatest gift is that you will always be playing drums somewhere.. and your name will always be associated with the one thing you always were - a great New Orleans drummer.

I am so proud of you..


Love, Mona

today is not going to be good for me

I have to start some changes that I do not want to make - none of this takes you out of my heart or mind - but I cannot continue to slip. I know you would tell me to get off my ____ and do what I have to do - so today I start that process. But my heart is breaking....

love you

Made Some Hard Decisions today

Made some decisions today that I did not want to make.. but in the long run it is for the better - hopefully the pain, fear and frustration will find a way to leave..

I still miss you and my heart breaks for you everyday..

Friends FromCalifornia

Ray and his family stopped in New Orleans. I had them stay at the house. I sent them to places you would have taken them with pride and last night we went to Crazy Johnnies. I truly wish you had been here - you would have had so much fun. And on their way back to California - they stopped to visit you. I hope you knew.. I miss you so much... things are tough but I will figure it out - I promise - I am not sure how but I will. love you always

Took your Mom to see you yesterday

Your Mom and I went to Rayne yesterday to visit you... I am so sorry I did not make it on All Saints Day. But you are surrounded by the orange roses you used to bring your Mom. I will bring you Calla Lilly's next time. They meant so much to us at the house. I will find them. Please help me with my current challenges - give me strength. I love ya.