Merry Christmas

Honey - today is just as quiet as it always was.. It was always just me and you and then you went off to Rock N Bowl to play, preparing for the day after Christmas when our families came together. I am so glad we were able to have the house to share with all those people. It meant so much to you. Yes it was the best house and it was yours.. I missed our traditional breakfast today ..

I wanted to have one more Christmas at the house - but I did not have it in me. And more than anything I wanted you here but neither was in the cards. I am having to put the house on the market.. I am so sorry.. but I am struggling.. This will always be OUR house - no place else will ever be as special.

I wanted to come to see you today but just could not.. I will see you tomorrow - our day to celebrate.. It won't be the same but I will at least spend some time with you. Your mother does not understand my need to see and be with you where you are - but there is such comfort in being with you.. I am so glad you decided that Rayne would be your final resting plave.. there are people who love and care for you there.. and my heart is always with you..

Merry Christmas my love, I miss you and your smile, your energy and your love of drums and life...

Cor Jesu Band Sweater

I know how much your heritage meant to you so last week I donated your Cor Jesu Band Sweater to the Brother Martin Alumni Association. So forever you will be remembered through this donation at the school. I hope you are pleased with what I have done. I hope one day to go to the school and create an endowment for the drum program at he music department with funds from Harry's Hats. I had to put it on hold for a little while I get in control of finances - I have to concentrate there first then building your foundation becomes predominant..I miss you so much..

I know you are my angel in heaven but I have a couple here on earth.. please watch over the ones here on earth Mike, Bo and Diddley(Dusty).

And Bobby - truly helped me out with your Mom this week. Thank him for me in some special way..

Nothing is what I thought it would be

Oh - how I wish you were still here, healthy. Life is surely not what I expected. There are so many things that have to change. None of them are what I want. pray for me..

The hard part starts tonight

I start packing all your drums ups to take them to be sold. I have held out as long as I can and I hope you are good with whom I have chosen. I am so not looking forward to this. Please watch over me and help me through this..

And especially next week for the trip - I will need your support..

I miss you..

Raymond's Birthday

I went to Henderson last night to celebrate Raymond's birthday at Pat's in Henderson. It was the first time since the funeral that the 4 of us were together.. yes Mike came in from Houston. I brought Raymond the "pot" that he has salivated over since you bought it. I know he will take good care of it and use it and that is what is important.. Mike is also wearing the watch you wore when you left us. I sent him home with your leather jacket and gloves - I know my little brother will be warm because of you. You know he is a grandpa now. I have also spoken with George and I am making arrangements to take your drums to George - he will I believe take the best care of them. I know you would be happy that he is putting them in the hands of people who will love them the way you did. I am still lost without you. I tried hard to go visit you yesterday but the traffic in Baton Rouge made it too late to go see you - I am so sorry I really want to be there but I will find a way to see you before Christmas.. Love you and wish you were here..